getting what you need

its strange how it works.. getting what you need.. you think that things are not what you want but in reality its all there ..its just about learning to recognise what you need.. to stop pushing away the fruits that the universe offers .. stop fighting against the tide and accepting what arrives.. look more closely at what is in front of you... take a chance and reach out.. i've been " leaving" since i arrived .. allowing small moments but not really engaging.. not allowing myself to be part, for fear of what i would lose again... but losses come along anyway..dont not dare to dream for fear of what may not happen..it hurts for a while, it feels so good to have dreamed a little, to imagine and create ...for this helps manifest other realities,to place in front of you another choice another dream..accept what has not come to pass and allow what is here to breath..i sow the seeds, no one else, it is my life, my choices, even the ones i feel are not made by me ,they are the culmination of my actions.. somehow it was my choice.. listen to your instinct it will lead you to what you need..dont let the ego over ride it..happiness is acceptance ,flow and a little bit of what you fancy ..